Every once and a while ....

Today started out good, had my Starbucks, got the kids to school without feeling rushed and came home to enjoy some down time. Then of coarse I start thinking of all the things that need to get done and I leap up and begin working around the house.  I'm not sure if its exhaustion or just plain getting sick of always trying not to hurt someones feelings and holding all my frustrations in. I started a new journal tonight and just wrote, didn't care if it made sense , just let it all out, the good bad and ugly and I didn't realize how much anger i have been holding in. It felt good to get it out. Everyday of my life is a battle. I realize from the outside looking in it looks like I have an easy life but trust me, the secrets in my life could break a person mentally if they didn't fight consistently. Everyday I have to consciously remind myself that I am strong and capable of anything I want to achieve. It literally is mind over matter. The truth is I do so much for everyone because I get a mental payoff for it. I do have a genuine heart and love to make peoples lives better but it does ease my inner pain. At some point Ill be able to be more specific but I'm not at that place yet. But I will fight everyday and conquer everyday and make a difference. No one should be able to take away my good energy and I'm going to stay strong and keep learning and getting stronger. AND that's my daily vent session. Hopefully I will be uploading a funny video blog tomorrow. A good change of pace!

Love and Peace my Loves....
                                                          Brandy Sue