Addressing my Absence

I suppose it is time to pull my big girl panties up and start writing in my blog again. I took a little ( ok extremely long ) break due to my world taking a huge spin out of control. The past few months have been very hard .... well actually TORTURE but hey who's really gonna jerk a tear at this point anyway. All I can say is I will explain and move forward. I decided to keep all my old posts on here because they are a part of my past and I will not apologise for the path that has brought me where I am. ANYWHOOOOO here I go....
In October I had some very person family issues happen. I will not disclose all of the events for the privacy of the others involved but lets just say it was eye opening and challenging and continues to be an issue in my life that I have to find a way to deal with. One of the events that I can discuss was the most shocking, it was the passing of my grandparents Jordan and Aleita Vojta. My grandmother was fighting cancer and battling just like an elder German woman would ! She was strong and courageous always thinking of how we felt about her condition and always making it seem like she was fine and doing well. Well She did finally make her journey to heaven. Our family as a whole was utterly heartbroken. I knew my life would never be the same. We hugged my grandpa and could only imagine his pain , a pain so bad that he passed away 4 days later. Our family had lost so much in such a short amount of time. The head of our tight knit family was gone, a thought that still doesn't seem real to me. I know that things change but that doesn't mean that it is easy , as a matter of fact the changes I have been through have been the most painful I've ever experienced. i think about my grandparents daily. I will treasure all the memories I have and thank god that I had the privilege of having them in my life for so long.



Now after a lot of thought I have decided to vaguely address the fact that I am now divorced from Travis. This has been a very hard time in my life and I want to move forward and do whatever it is that the lord has put me here to do. The reasons for our divorce are private but I will say that we get along fine and we did not have a " bad " divorce. I put bad in quotations because some divorces can drag on for years and end very bitter. Travis and I did not fight over possessions or the children. We are still parents and will continue to get along and work together for the best interest of the kids and ourselves. All divorces are sad , its the end of something that started with such promise and i am aware that it affects everyone, not just the kids and I, that being said I cant and wont apologise. I have to live my life , I'm the one who listens to my thoughts as my head rests on my pillow at night and I have to do what is right for me. So this is going to be the end of this topic.
I want to end this by saying that the kids and I am doing good. there are good days and bad days and some just so so days. As hard as everything has been I am going to come out of all this a better woman. I am blessed to have beautiful healthy vibrant children , a healthy body and people in my life who stand by my side at any cost. Life is good and i refuse to take it for granted.
XOXO Brandy Sue